god you love me

07/11/2009

god i love you,
i feel it so fully
and it's so calming
to have the rest of my life
ahead of me
knowing i have this part
completely figured out.
you completely figured me out
i wouldn't be surprised
if we got married
you'd wear a suit
i'd have the simplest gown
and our friends would throw rice
kiss me in rice showers
from now until then let's kiss
every single time that it rains
and let's pretend it's rice showers.
i like us living together
in a tiny apartment
fuck it'd be filthy
we're filthy, we're messy
but we'd clean up for company
and lay about the mess
you kill the bugs
i'll cook the breakfast
i'll make the tea
and you run the bathwater
bubble baths together
i get out of the shower first
so you can shake your hair dry
and then we kiss, all wrapped in towels
god i'd kiss you the rest of my life
i love yellows and reds and greens and blues
oh it would take ages to paint
and we'd change our mind everyday
but that's okay we'd just keep painting
and after all, we have each other
you bring all the colour to my world anyways
all the colour to my world.
you tell me you want this
god, you love me
god, you love me
i'm the luckiest girl in the world.

i suck

07/03/2009

they all got bored of me too you know
why do you all find it so surprising that i'm insecure
and that i can't take the compliments
that you dole out needlessly
within a few months
you'll be tired of me too
i won't be as magical
as beautiful
as incredible
and you won't want to say those things
you certainly won't mean them
you used to die to stay the night
you're inching for the door
don't feel so bad dear, it's practically science
every river in the world will eventually dry.

crash together like waves

07/02/2009

your kiss comes like a cannonball
i'm your vessel, hit, i fall
lay your claims, and come aboard
find within yourself restored
i can tell when the waves will come
our gaze freezes till one succumbs
the cannonball strikes again but now
the bounds are broken, i allow
the tongue to feel its own way through
i find myself closer to you
your hands graze over my body where
my fingers slide and grip your hair
your lips on my throat follow their track
trace your fingers down as i arch my back
now we've moved from rivers to oceans
there's no more boundaries between our skin
the sweat on your skin tastes like saltwater sweet
and our bodys intertwine all the way to our feet
the simplest taste and you envelope me whole
your mouth moves so swiftly, we've lost control
and the way that you taste, my god, i'm submersed
all the water on earth couldn't quench this thirst
and it slows, and we feel calm before the storm
your body, my body, so soft and so warm
our eyes meet again and as i reach for your kiss
it begins and the world stops, all there is is this
and we sigh and cry out, i'm full from within
feel my hands grip as you melt into my skin
and you go to kiss me, and how my lips quiver
we whisper, feel misted, i'm hot but i shiver
we're two solid beings but the way that we flow
we mix and move as fluid as any ocean we know
soaking wet, treading water, drowning in you
hearts beating in time, stopping, and beginning anew
you look into me and i feel you from my very core,
we crash into each other like waves to the shore.

its okay to lose patience

07/02/2009

now i know you can lose patience with me
from time to time
because i tend to just lose my mind
and i'll go from dancing around your room
in my underwear
proclaiming how good i look
and making you kiss me
kiss me everywhere
i'm a prize my love look at me
look how good i look
when i'm looking up at you
and then i'll lose my mind
and tell you things unkind
take a joke too far and mock you
like every worst case scenario
comes true when i'm not around
and i wrap myself in layers and blankets
because you shouldn't have to see an inch
and i don't know why i get like this
i know you must want to lose it every time
lash out at me, and that'd be just fine
it doesn't hurt when you're upset
but it hurts when i upset you
and i think i just let it get too far sometimes
as i tend to do that every now and then
but my dear, you love that quality in me
it's why we came together
while i was in something else
and why we stayed together
despite the words of someone else
its why i didn't quit
when i heard every story
but instead found within you
an escape from my past
my past and my stories.
the insecure make the best lovers sweetheart
because while we are absolutely infuriating
with our attitudes toward ourselves
when we find someone who, like you,
shows us something we can love in ourselves,
they are all we live for.
my dear, is it any wonder
that you receive so many gifts
i can't go anywhere without thinking
of what you might like.
is it any wonder, my love,
why i look better now than i ever have
why i feel better now than i ever have
it's you, it's all in the way
that you make me move
that you make me speak
that you make me think
my love, the way you make me feel.
it brings tears to my eyes every second.
it hurts so much when i realize i've gone too far
but i promise i'll never let it overpower the rest.
because for every time i lose my mind
you will find the next day i am laughing more
and holding you closer
and kissing you sweeter
and i feel more strongly for you every time
that you let me lose my mind
in front of you.
so it's okay to lose patience sometimes.
as long as i don't lose my love,
you can lose your patience, and i'll lose my mind.