its okay to lose patience

07/02/2009

now i know you can lose patience with me
from time to time
because i tend to just lose my mind
and i'll go from dancing around your room
in my underwear
proclaiming how good i look
and making you kiss me
kiss me everywhere
i'm a prize my love look at me
look how good i look
when i'm looking up at you
and then i'll lose my mind
and tell you things unkind
take a joke too far and mock you
like every worst case scenario
comes true when i'm not around
and i wrap myself in layers and blankets
because you shouldn't have to see an inch
and i don't know why i get like this
i know you must want to lose it every time
lash out at me, and that'd be just fine
it doesn't hurt when you're upset
but it hurts when i upset you
and i think i just let it get too far sometimes
as i tend to do that every now and then
but my dear, you love that quality in me
it's why we came together
while i was in something else
and why we stayed together
despite the words of someone else
its why i didn't quit
when i heard every story
but instead found within you
an escape from my past
my past and my stories.
the insecure make the best lovers sweetheart
because while we are absolutely infuriating
with our attitudes toward ourselves
when we find someone who, like you,
shows us something we can love in ourselves,
they are all we live for.
my dear, is it any wonder
that you receive so many gifts
i can't go anywhere without thinking
of what you might like.
is it any wonder, my love,
why i look better now than i ever have
why i feel better now than i ever have
it's you, it's all in the way
that you make me move
that you make me speak
that you make me think
my love, the way you make me feel.
it brings tears to my eyes every second.
it hurts so much when i realize i've gone too far
but i promise i'll never let it overpower the rest.
because for every time i lose my mind
you will find the next day i am laughing more
and holding you closer
and kissing you sweeter
and i feel more strongly for you every time
that you let me lose my mind
in front of you.
so it's okay to lose patience sometimes.
as long as i don't lose my love,
you can lose your patience, and i'll lose my mind.