january is no excuse.

1/23/2009

don't be so cold just cuz it's january
the break in your image is really quite scary
are you really as amazing as you like to say
we can sit and drink wine in the cold
while you make me feel two years old
the wine is sweeter than you ever were anyway
now the wine we have is rather bitter
but it works doesn't it, and i'm no quitter
it's all about what you think you owe yourself
your position is that of one trying too hard
you took a lovely girl and you left her marred
you seem to forget what you owe someone else
the snow is deep but you make me walk first
you act relaxed, but your lips remain pursed
they were never that soft and never that sweet
you used to say lovely things about mine
when you still cared, it's been a long time
and you still stand proud like you can't be beat
i used to have to ask if i could kiss you
did you hold back like it'd make me miss you
it only left me feeling unwanted and so alone
sandpaper was more tender than your words
you said harsh things quiet but you know i heard
you never sounded happy when on the phone.
my hands are only cold cuz you stole my mittens
you were never warm even when you were smitten
my fingers lose circulation, and i will miss them.
i grew tired of you saying that you never got sick
your immunity wore on me rather quick
it was thrilling to see a cold bring down your system.
you'd patronize me in ways i'll never need
quoting all those books that you'll never read
you'll find i'm happiest when between two pages.
and when you'd mess up a quote i'd smile
because inflated marks won't help your trial
we know i'm smarter, just act for those stages.
i don't need money where i'll end up anyhow
i'm an eligible candidate by all standards now
is it sad that people fall a little harder for me than you?
you'll find i've learned not to overexert
thank you for teaching me how to hurt
when you're finally ready to talk, i doubt you'll talk true
maybe a handsome man from the STU campus
will take me far away and quote the romantics
and we'll live where it's warm and pleasant all of the year
maybe a man who knows all that makes me weak
won't use it against me, but just let me softly speak
i know the idea must shock you, but it happens dear.
the saddest part of all is that through this season
i lead the way through blizzards, with you as the reason
i never realized i wasn't following you the whole way.
so when you finally left me standing knee deep in snow
it stung worse than the cold, but its comforting to know
i was alone this whole time, so i can't lead myself astray.
perhaps i'll see you on the other side of the spring
you can let me know if this taught you anything
don't fake your concern, i'll thaw out in a month's time.
i was never bad to you, and i've got plenty to give
i will feel things again, yes don't worry, i'll live
all i need is a hand to hold and a bottle of wine.