Sunday, December 7, 2008

the challenge.

12/07/08

(re-edited 12/08/08)

i'm empty

not like the top half of an hourglass

but like your stomach

the morning after

with nothing left in it but acid

rotten, destructive, painful acid

my veins are full of everything

that could never make me better

and i'm empty on the outside

from the very depths

of where you once hid

in my chest, between my lungs

and i won't say heart, or soul, because

those fucking overused words

they're poison and i don't need any more

there's no rhyme and no reason

to the way that you act

it's like a trust game with blindfolds

and one of us leads and the other

well, we follow, follow,

blindly follow.

i don't know where you've led me

and i don't know why i continued to go

but it's clear now we're lost

and i'm begging you, please

let me take the blindfold off.

if i fall to my knees and let you

grab me and shake me

hold me upside down by my feet

my feet that are callused and rough

they hurt me so badly this whole time

following your voice

trusting your guide

would you take me and turn me inside out

and if you rip me to pieces

and nothing comes out

it's because i am empty

i'm empty.


1 comment:

Max said...

I like where this is going. Keep at it. It's immediately better.

What stands you apart from a lot of bad high school poetry is your ideas. It's clear what you're trying to get across is interesting, but it's in the getting there that sometimes you run into a bit of trouble. But that's okay, because most people don't even have anything interesting to SAY. You can get better at writing, but you can't be made to be interesting.

You use a lot of metaphors I've noticed. That sounds really stupid. "Oh Anna, I see you frequently employ allusions." Geez, sorry. I guess I could delete it, but I don't like to edit myself.

Anyway, be aware that the metaphor that you think is really cool and clever may be perceived as lame or silly. I'm not saying one of yours is, but it's good to be conscious. I'm just trying to make sure you have a keen working filter, the writer's conscience if you will, that checks your ideas. I mean, it's great to just let it flow (and bad to be completely self-conscious), but often writers will fall into the habit of just thinking that every word they shit out is gold after a string of good work, when in reality we should be our own harshest critics.

Watch that your words don't sound like Avril Lavigne pop songs, and stuff like that, you know? It's often tough to avoid cliches, but you just have to do your best. People tend to dismiss high school poetry if it sounds like it could have been ripped out of the pages of a girl's diary.

One quick way to that is melodrama. There's a fine line you walk with phrases like "Those fucking shoes I wore just to look nicer for you." Again, I'm not saying your poem is melodramatic, or even that the line is bad, I'm just inviting you to always be thinking about stuff like this. If you fall into a groove and you're never challenged, how can you improve, right? It hurts when someone disses something I write, but then I'm glad for it, because it allows me to see something I didn't before, and it grounds arrogance.

Once again, I feel bad for publishing comments full of criticism, but I seriously would not take the time to do this if I wasn't intrigued. Keep writing from the heart, and I'll keep reading.